Nine years. I miss him so much. Them. They should be here but they aren’t. It doesn’t make sense and it never will. This is the first year since Johnny went away that there has been snow on the ground on December 7. The sky was something special when Momma and I visited Johnny’s spot today. This isn’t where we’re “supposed” to be but it is where we are. There are no answers and the questions don’t bring us any resolve or to any destination. Asking why just runs you in circles til you’re emotionally dizzy and simply collapse. Just gotta take it moment by moment today.